feeling that change

as the time grow old u will see the time change very fast ,u will see the one you love fade from your life and the dearest one u care in your heart change like the taste of the cloth u wear.for me i still could not give even feeling for the one i care ,some time the feeling will change it very hard to maintain with just visiting them or taking care of them growing up is the hardesting i will take in my life i guess .i still dont no well, whom my realitive from my father side or other that feel like making my parent happy .lately i feel like not getting close to any body who i been close bonded with through my life and sometime i dont wish to hurt them but that other side i haven shown most to anybody who i care so much but if they had show i sorry maybe it for there best or maybe it not for them .